+DaddyGod'sGirl
+WISHES.6CHPPS.4E5SMSS
TCFS Feb2008
+DanceStyles: HipHop.Jazz.Ballet.
Basic chacha/jive/mambo.
+Ambition: A [double] degree with Law =D
+Irresistible: Peanut butter, milo, pineapple. x)

but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
-Isaiah 40:31

The mocker seeks wisdom and finds none, but knowledge comes easily to the discerning. -Proverbs 14:6

+Live the Life God has planned for me
+More hats! (I can pull off almost any kind xD)
+Clothes I can use for dance - track pants, funky tops, crazy socks etc.
+Pretty framed photographs of different groups of friends (Palmies, UL, WISHES, 6C, Dancers etc.)
+Ballet flats
+A pair of white sandals.
+Heels. Haha. Because pammie says so.
+New Zip-Up Hoodie (saw a nicee one at Supree =D)
+Diary of A Teenage Girl Books
+True Colours books
+Learn many languages

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He answered me on the same night and the next morning =D

So I was still a little troubled by the question as I got ready to go sleep that night. I set my quiet time materials on my bed and started asking Him, "How do I answer that question?"

Then I felt God nudge me to open my quiet time book, like He had something to show me there. So I did. This is what it said -

July 11:
" 'I will never boast about anything except the cross of our Lord... through whom the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world.'
-Galatians 6:14

Without except, every one of the overcomes I know personally who have come back to their feet after terrible defeat have lived in victory only through a radical walk with Jesus Christ in truth. For folks like me, there's not a lot of gray. I learned the hard way what can happen when you wander too close to a hole. You can fall in."


And I was wowed. Because that totally seemed to answer my question, and clear up some thoughts in my head. Like God does not force you away from such holes, sometimes you just walk to close to it. Sometimes you manage to walk past the hole, sometimes you fall in. I guess personally for me, while I am totally for stepping out of my comfort zone, there are some zones I just don't want to be in, and I know that God, my family and my friends wouldn't want me to be in either.

Then came sunday morning, where a lady from the RBC Ministries spoke at service. I loved her message, she illustrated the point of view of Mary, when she went to anoint Jesus' feet with the expensive perfume and how she felt being criticised by the disciples. Her message really struck me -

"As children and followers of Jesus Christ, just as Jesus was misunderstood wherever He went, so will we be in following in the steps of our Lord."

"Remember who you are, and who you are called to be,"

"A life poured out for God will get looked down upon by man, but God sees the heart and He will show blessing and favour for your love and obedience."

Notice none of it the statements above say anything about sticking to a strict set of rules. But they do mention about a certain level of love and intimacy with God that is beyond the understanding of man sometimes. All these statements hit home, and really answered my question of "Where do I stand?" and "Where do I want to stand?"

I reckon some people may read my posts and think that I am becoming too religious or something.

I'm not. You speak to me, and I'm just the same old person and friend.

I just love God.

And that's why I stand where I am.

And honestly, I don't believe that I'm missing out on much. If anything, I'm experiencing more. =)

Just had brunch with Diane and shared with her about my question and how it was cleared up, and she gave me a bit more of her take and what she heard from friends. Thanks for brunch Dee, was fun =D

Oh, and I attempted to carry on with my choreography yesterday, but I think my muscles kind of died after the wonderful 30km run with my mum and the ladies, so after a while all my steps were half a beat behind and felt really heavy. I did manage to add a few more steps, but I need to get the timing right and perfect the individual steps.

And I seriously need a mirror. I video-ed myself, and I could see so many mistakes in the steps and that my sharpness and strength was way off. I need to book studio time; probably in Melbourne. I was thinking of doing my own fortnightly trainings. At least the booking prices in Melbourne for dance studios are waaaaaay cheaper than here -.-''

Oh wells, I might be dropping by Vanessa's place later. I can't wait to see her! =D

Oh and I kinda revived my fan fiction mania again, uh oh =X

I don't know why, but a catch up with a friend made me consider this question:

Where do I stand?

Which of course makes up the next question, Where do I want to stand?

And well, maybe this comes after a long way of maturity in Christ, but no matter how I look at it, I don't want to stand anywhere else. I like my position. I'm glad if other people go other ways, and even more so if they are happy too. Yet I don't feel like I'm missing out much.

But I guess God throws some of the greatest surprises at you, which may or may not leave you a little confused. Such things just take time to understand. There is a need to step out of one's comfort zone, though where the indication of where your step is to land may take some time to come through.

God has His ways with things, we just need to follow his lead.

And I'm thinking if I could continue to serve in dance ministry even when I'm much older and working and all. I'll pray about it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9XpXddA3Zm0

Not bad. Considering that I haven't danced in nearly three weeks. Haha. And I think I need to work up my styling again; I've gotten so used to very Chris Brown-Ne Yo-R&B feels that my hard-hitting power southside hip hop is a little off. But I enjoyed the class =D. See if you can pick me out - I probably performed best in the very first group video, and I did pretty ok in the split group video (third video)

I hung out with stace, pammie and cui last saturday. Most of it was just talking about random things and catching up. It was really awesome. I hope we get to hang out again next week, then we might be able to have the complete W.I.S.H.E.S in one place at one time. Hahaha. Cui has some photos (pammie you missed the camwhoring!) so hopefully I can get them from her to show you two of my gorgeous best friends look like =D

Last week was my lazy week. This week is going to be pretty on-the-go, with catch-ups, dance classes and spending time with family.

Nothing beats God's peace and forgiveness. I'll tell you that =)

I feel really accomplished today. Even though it was one of my "at home" days. Haha.

I followed Mummy to the hairdresser this morning to do my scalp treatment as usual. Michelle taught me how to wax my hair properly. Yes, truth be told, I do not know how to wax my hair. I bought this hair mud thing from Hairhouse Warehouse and I've been trying to work the do, but it hasn't been very successful. Now I know. yay! I actually looked pretty cool after the whole, even if I do say so myself.

Then I came home and did more reading - I have officially finished all my Diary of a Teenage Girl books; at least the ones I have so far. I feel a bit sad though, that I do not have any more in the series to read for now. Though the plots involved major events and incidents that we usually do not go through in normal life, it also covers a huge range of issues that teenage girls do indeed go through - both in terms of struggling with faith and with just life and other stuff. I feel God sort of speaking to me in the books sometimes, and even pointing out things I can do.

And the books have made me sort of wish that I could keep a diary like that. In such great detail of the past memories and incidents and thoughts and emotions I experienced. Lately, I've been having thoughts that are like a commentary to my day-to-day activities and thoughts; when I think back on them, they sound so interesting to me and I comment on that in my thoughts again. It kind of goes like a continuous cycle. If I were to read back on those one day, I bet i'll be really amused and tickled. Haha.

I'm thinking now that I'm quite glad to have this blog then. To keep track of my thoughts and what God has done for me in life.

By the way, the first bit of Revealation has occured. x) That's all I'm saying.

I also played the piano for half an hour! I'm really rusty, but my side-reading was pretty good, considering I haven't played for more than a year already. I decided to focus on playing a few old favourites of mine, and to just keep practising those. ^^

In the evening before dinner, I went out to the front of the house and decided to jam a while. Basically I just blasted music and did whatever. I spent some time going through the choreography I've been wanting to learn, and then practising. Though I can admit it's still far from perfect. I always have the moves, but I seem to rush them and forget about the style. Need to work on that.

Aida cooked satay bee hoon for dinner tonight. It was so yum! I don't remember ever eating it before, and it was really good. =D

Yes, it's these random moments in life that we need to learn to appreciate sometimes. They're totally God-given =)